From time to time you find yourself in a position where you have to be ok with being lost. I don't mean lost as in Tom Hanks Castaway, but just in an overwhelming how do I figure this out type shit.
Without sounding like a young damsel, I am lost and I simply can't. My acceptance of this loss is made a little easier in the sense that I put myself here. Now, I realise I haven't explained myself... I'm in my first year of Uni and have decided to switch up majors. After painstakingly decided on what degree would help me achieve my goals, I realised my goals were just ideas, really shallow puddle like ideas. I didn't take into consideration the actual careers and where that takes me and how it aligns with my beliefs, emotions and life. That after everything you think you knew, you actually didn't and in fact you were just emulating what you thought you should want. This is what getting lost has given me. A real hard look.
It's not all 'pull yourself together' heartless responses, but it kinda feels like a process of elimination way of deciding (even if it is the long way).
So fair thee well my exhausting Business Degree and hello bright new Creative Arts world!....I will probably regret this.
